the spark

it’s gone

Literally

my grades suck

my family relationships suck

my relationships with guys suck

my body sucks

everything is awful and i just want to sleep forever

my life is over.

What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?

• beautiful

im in love with my boyfriend

i want him to hold me

Running List: To Do (Before I Die) 21-30

• Go skydiving
• Be a bridesmaid
• Stay in an underwater bungalow
• Fly first class
• See the Northern Lights
• Go on a cruise
• Name a star
• Do a 365 day photography project
• Go scuba diving
• See a Broadway show on Broadway

I’m My Own Bully

im the only one hating on me

im the only one who cant accept my flaws

im the only one who thinks im not good enough

im the only one thinking about the what ifs

im the only one harassing myself for not doing/being something

im the only one who even knows my full story

im the only one who sees where the imperfections lie

I Really Want These!

• An industrial in my right ear
• A small stud on the left side of my nose
•  on my left shoulder blade
• Freedom on my right wrist
• on my right hip
• αγνή ζωή on my left wrist
• MCMXCV down my right side
  
• Carpe Diem on my left outer ankle

In This World

in this world if u are a strong, outspoken girl who stands up for what u believe in, sorry to say, but ur a bitch!

hmm… really?

Techno

i’ve been in a very techno/dance music mood these past few days. makes me wanna go party with random people and come home at 3 in the morning. i want to get out of my life i guess. sometimes i think about throwing my life away, i mean its not that big of a deal is it? if i go to school and get my bachelors in something thatll make me 35 grand a year. i can marry a guy with a good job. i could have a job where i have to look good. i dont have to be successful other than being beautiful. maybe thats why im so education conscious, because im not beautiful. so that wouldnt be an option for me…